A Childhood Wish Come True

I have been feeling dispirited lately and it was starting to get in the way of my daily activities. Normally, when I sense I'm having an episode of mental or emotional upset, I have things I do to help me get over it quickly. But this time, all the things that used to work for me didn't. It was three months already and I was feeling more anxious.

One night I was scrolling through Tiktok and one of the suggested video was of an oracle card reading. After watching a couple of those videos I kept getting ads and suggested pages of tarot and oracle cards and card readers on Facebook and Instagram.

Flashback to the 90s. As a child and teenager, I wanted to be a witch, but my Tito Alex (✝), who was my only connection to that kind of life, said he didn't want to encourage me for fear of my Mom. He said to wait until I become an adult to join a wicca. But as an adult I realized the difference between what I wanted to be and what I needed to be, and was faced with the hard truth that the latter is the only option available to me. And so with Tito A not as present in our life as he used to be, the happy dream to be a witch/wiccan, even just as a hobby, fizzled.

Fast forward to 2021. I was reminded of this dream and resolved to get my own Tarot card and learn how to read them. Mostly to help me get guidance from the universe, but also to feel a bit closer to that dream that I know I will never fully realize. If Tito A were still alive today he would most probably make fun of my choice of deck, but also I'm sure he'd be so proud!😂

I was surprised that my first reading was quite accurate to where I was and how I was feeling at that time. It was something I needed to hear to find my way back to the path I needed to be.

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